i'M BACK! i missed doing this way too much to quit for longer than like a month. lol. so here's a HUGE UPDATE! i love you all. [ one ] Sand filters through my eyelashes as I wake
You reassure me everything is okay,
and you tell me that I need my sleep.
So, of course, I bury myself in my bed sheets.
I know I never said I love you back ..
Because I don't believe.
I don't believe in love.
But that doesn't mean I don't believe in you.
I swear that I do. I do.
And did I mention I'm finally bringing out the real me?
Or that it feels like forever since you last kissed me?
Has anyone told you that you're amazing lately?
You know, like you used to be.
Well, I'll always think of you that way.
[ major credit to the owner of sapphireporcelain ] 
[ two ] We almost had it right.
But the puzzle pieces misaligned.
You've been talking in your sleep,
but you never mention me. 
[ three ] Dearly beloved, we are gathered here today
to mourn everything worth mourning.
The broken laughs, the empty hearts, the secret laughs,
and the ones who didn't love us back. 
[ four ] Kiss me.
Kiss me as if my lips are laced with poison
and you have a death wish tonight. 
[ five ] She laid her heart and soul right inside your hands.
And you stole her every dream.
And you crushed her plans, yes you did.
She never even knew she had a choice.
And that's what happens when the only voice she hears
is telling her she can't.
Stupid boy. 
[ six ] Our lives are all beautiful lies.
They're filled with contradiction
and elements of being duplicitous.
We all live our dreams at the cost of someone else's. 
[ seven ] What a brave little girl ;;
instead of adding to the drama like everyone else,
she decided to be different and not burden
the rest of the population with her problems.
She knows that in this world,
she's going to have to save herself. 
[ eight ] Would I say we have a history?
No. That implies that there was something worth remembering.
See, all it was was a delusional girl,
and a boy who couldn't bring himself to give a damn. 
[ nine ] I want something to wake up for every morning.
It doesn't have to be someone, but I'd like it to be.
It just needs to exist.
I want to stop disappointing people,
because I want to stop disappointing myself.
I want to stop making friends with the right kind of people
who make me feel wrong.
I want to find a passion for anything, anything to keep me going.
I want to be the girl at the end of the movie who
does the half smile, and know everything will be fine.
I want total honesty to be easier to achieve.
I want to end my life as myself ;;
not my friends, not my family,
and not who they always expected I would be.
I want the world to be worth living without love,
because I don't think I will ever find it.
I want equality to exist among everyone.
Especially prejediced teenage girls.
I want stress and exhaustin to disappear.
I want to acheive everything they never did. 
[ ten ] I took one big step and I looked away.
And then I thought of all the things that I wanted to say.
I'm always too late ;; you never got your story straight.
I'm always up late ;; I think I'm everything you hate.  
[ eleven ] The minutes fell like petals all around us.
Like a goodbye kiss ..
When goodbye felt so wrong.  
[ twelve ] The more sensitive you are,
the more likely you are to be brutalized,
develop scabs, never survive.
Never allow yourself to feel anything
because you always feel too much.  
[ thirteen ] I am what you're feeling when you're nervous.
I am what you're hearing when you walk away.
You just might be the only thing that saves me.  
[ fourteen ] I was anchored to something once.
But I never wanted to be anchored to someone.
Maybe that makes me driftwood ..
But maybe, it makes me my own person.  
[ fifteen ] Every single person has at least one secret that would break your heart.
If we could just remember this, I think there would be a lot more
compassion and tolerance in this cold, dark world.  
[ sixteen ] Look at you, you well-dressed hypocrite.
You sing all the songs you hated when you were a kid,
you know, the ones you never knew the words to.
And that's alright, you're grown up.
But just because you can spell love ..
doesn't mean you should say it so much.  
[ seventeen ] When breathing's a burden we all have to bear,
and trust is one thing we're taught never to share.
Somehow you just seem to shine ;
When loving means breaking and saying goodbye.  
[ eighteen ] Vanity's gun left you dead in Hollywood.
Empty. Addicted. And screaming for comfort
from a world devoid of compassion.
Exchanging hopes for rejection.  
[ nineteen ] I got your love letters,
and I'm throwing them all away.
I'm driving 95 and I'm driving you away.  
[ twenty ] I know he's been sleeping around,
because that's not my name on the marquee.
I thought I was his golden girl.
He said, "I never promised anything."  
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